This is what my brain has felt like lately:
A jumbled mass of junk and chaos. Like the contents of my purse (which I can't stand, by the way), the mess contains important information, tasks, tools, responsibilities, etc., but the container just isn't functioning very well. Things get lost, put in the wrong place, or forgotten altogether. The pile you see here includes four random keys that I cannot identify, ten writing utensils, six bracelets, four tubes of lip gloss...and yet a receipt I need to return something is nowhere to be found.So what do I do when I can't cope any more?
Dump out my purse on the counter, for one.
And make lists.
This "brain dump" list is kind of long, but it totally ignores responsibilities related to housekeeping and child rearing. And it's relatively short-term, too. It covers a few weeks, maybe (hopefully). "Take a shower" should probably be on there. "Sweep and mop the bleepity-bleep floor" should definitely be on there. But I fully acknowledge and remember that those things ought to be done. It's the other things that only float into my subconscious at three in the morning or when I'm rifling through a stack of papers that I think, "Oh, yeah! I've really got to do that."
Here you see my efforts at getting a big monkey off my back. I found a white crib listed on Craigslist that seemed like a gem but in reality became a giant project. It will be nice once I've painted it, but I probably should have held out a little longer either for a real gem or for a brand-new crib.
Oh, well. Sunk cost, right? Good thing I think painting is a soothing exercise. And that I like checking things off of my never-ending lists. It's not like I have anything else to do during naptime...
6 comments:
Just put it out there. That's all you can do, sometimes, is just stand still with your reflexes ready, and catch those dag-blasted thoughts as they fly by in their very haphazard fashion. Then once you've caught them, you sort of put them in a jar (your little list there) and then they don't bother you nearly so much. You can let them out one at a time, on your terms, and squash them with a very heavy shoe.
That's how I feel, anyway. :)
What a fabulous comment! Thank you, Rachel!
I LOVE lists. They make me feel like I've accomplished major things when I see them being crossed off. Rachel's perception of them is fabulous!
Good for you for actually typing up a nice neat list. When I get those "endless lists of little things I need to do" going through my brain at midnight, I just scribble on any paper I have near me. I have no doubt you will get it all done. You are very on the ball and soooo organized it baffles me. Go Heidi!!!!
The crib will be beautiful when it's all done and you'll be proud that you did it. Less than 100 days to go. How exciting!
That picture is how I feel and how my house looks all the time. I'm glad to know you have moments like the rest of us who look at all you accomplish with awe. (o: You're awesome. Love the list ... I am a list person too, just not as good at the checking off part... drat!
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