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Life is interesting.

Sometimes I wish it were boring, and that I could count on sameness and consistency and my illusion that I have some measure of control. But I don't live on Easy Street (I'm convinced no one does). I live on Adventure Boulevard or Surprise Avenue or Holdontoyoursocksitsgonnagetwild Drive.

More precisely, I live on Begonia Terrace.

Remember that post where I waxed dramatic about real estate and my bank account? Yeah, well, those were my thoughts and feelings that day (and for several days following). But those thoughts and feelings slowly morphed into another plan, which begat a different idea, which led to these other thoughts and feelings, which developed another animal entirely. This was a very emotional process for me, and if I could sell tickets for other people to ride my roller coaster of a summer, I think I'd attract thrill-seekers worldwide.

The short story is that Garry flew to Mesa on Friday and drove us home on Saturday. We are back in Colorado Springs, and our house is off the market. Our moving plans are officially on hold while we catch a collective breath, take stock, and simply enjoy each other and our life in the gorgeous state of Colorado. We trust that if a move is part of our eternal plan, then God will work out the details.

Having the perspective of the last six weeks, I am very grateful for my blessings: for dear parents who are generous and patient and forgiving; for Garry's stable and rewarding employment; for children who can adapt; for cherished friends; for air conditioning; for the priesthood and the temple; for repentance; and most of all, for a husband and children living together with me under one Colorado roof.

I have a new ability to see and feel and appreciate the joys in my life. And if that is the reward for this craziest of summers, then the journey was worth it.

18 comments:

Rosemary T said...

Hum... Life is interesting, and life is good. Your story reminds me of this quote from Elder Oaks "Indeed, we cannot have true faith in the Lord without also having complete trust in the Lord's will and in the Lord's timing." Read more at http://speeches.byu.edu/reader/reader.php?id=684

Christa Johnson said...

man, you have had some very interesting few days!! I just read your last two posts, and oh man, what a week, huh?
I bet you are glad to be home and if anything, I enjoyed hanging out with you this summer... maybe that is why you had to move here. just to see me once or twice...hummm
Your a great example to me and I am so glad you blog because I really enjoy reading all about your life!! And plus, you are an amazing writer!
good luck in colorado!
Love ya, Christa

The Wizzle said...

We are praying for peace for your family. We would love to have you here, but I'd rather have you happy and contented wherever you find yourselves! Welcome home.

granny said...

Be happy.

Trinette McCrary said...

Welcome Home....

shaina said...

Things are never as we plan. I hope you feel content here, and hope things all happen as they should! We'd love to see you soon!

Jeff and Lori said...

Welcome home!!

Jenny said...

I hope the roller coaster ride calms down a bit for you in the near future!

Amanda said...

I'm glad that you're feeling good--and that you're enjoying life.

JulSH said...

Sometimes we have to take a leap of faith. Sometimes we have to have the faith to climb back up that mountain we just jumped from.

Funny how sometimes we just need to experience the "process" to know what we need to do next.

One thing I know for sure, you'll make magic wherever you land!

Melanie said...

You're a woman of great faith! I miss you a ton...but am grateful you are enjoying your wonderful life in Colorado! There have been so many blessings along with way this summer. I have no doubt that God's hand is guiding your life!

Shannon said...

Wasn't that your goal for this year? To find joy in the journey? Maybe the Lord is helping you realize this goal in more ways than you ever dreamed. I think "joy in the journey" means having faith in the Lord. Keep your chin up, Heidi. It's all for your good!

Emma said...

Whew! What a ride. Enjoy being home.

angieinpink said...

i'm working on a page for my house with this poem/quote:

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious Ambiguity."
— Gilda Radner

I love you sister.

Adri said...

So glad you're home! We like having the Bartles around. :)

Maynards said...

Glad you are home and back with the hubby. Doesn't it feel good to be under one roof again? Life is crazy for sure. Say hello to Colorado for me!

Grandma said...

I hope all is well and happy! Welcome home:)

hdb80 said...

"Waxed dramatic..." LOL! You are funny.

pass it on!

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