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Nov 9, 2009

Finding my finish line

The last couple weeks have been...ah...thought-provoking. My thoughts have been filled with everything from serious issues to frivolous concerns, from spiritual highs to emotional lows, from sparkling amusement to jagged aggravation. I've learned a lot about myself.

As I've walked through the gauntlet in recent weeks, I've mostly settled on what's important, and I'm trying to align my actions with what I believe. In some cases, this process isn't too tough, but in others...boy howdy! I need a lot of motivation to change.

One such motivating experience arrived on Saturday evening as I drove home from a lovely couple of hours in Garden of the Gods. Garry and I took pictures of the kids for Christmas cards (you'll have to wait to see them), and at the last minute, I decided that he and I ought to join our offspring in the photos. I'm not crazy about the way I look right now, but I wanted to record the history of our family -- with all its members.

And that's exactly what happened. The photos captured a moment in time. As I scrolled through the photos on the camera as we drove home, I saw three rowdy boys, a darling little elf-girl, a handsome Daddy, and....who? Me? Was that really me? I was completely flabbergasted (emphasis on flab) at the smiling woman in those pictures.

That was a major turning point.

According to my scale, the Lexi pounds are still coming off. Apparently I'm only holding onto 9 of the 40 I packed on during my last pregnancy. I'm not really a believer, though, because my clothes are more awkward than ever. My four-kid figure is far more frumpy than I ever, ever, ever thought it would get. I'm only 30, for crying out loud! This is really quite pathetic. And I've been in denial for too long.

So.

I know you've heard my song before, but I am determined that this time it will ring true. Today I signed up on a little personal training website. I'm going to register for a 10K on January 9 (no matter how cold it is!). I'm already eating better and drinking more water and cutting out sweets.

Today is the first day of the new me. Maybe if lots of people know I'm back in the race, I'll have a better chance of getting to the finish line.

10 comments:

Rosemary T said...

women tell me that your body is never the same after you have children (in many ways). Maybe you should try and embrace this new you?! :)

Emma said...

You go girl!!! Good luck. I can't keep my hand off the Halloween candy, so those last 10 lbs aren't going away any time soon.

Carroll Conversations said...

I so understand. Way to "start" on doing something about it. They always say that's sometimes the hardest part. . .starting. I'm with ya girl!

Dan and Katie said...

You are a beautiful lady/girl since you are only 1 year older than me :) I wish I was on that boat with you right now, but a mini victory for me...I didn't buy the huge box of snickers ice cream bars at Sams :)

Emmy Z. said...

Go Heidi! I'm happy to encourage you all I can. I might be an awful runner (understatement of the year), but I know how good it feels to get in a good workout. Good luck. Keep us posted on your progress!

Oh, and welcome back to blogging. Missed ya.

The Wizzle said...

It will be worth it. It feels good to accomplish something, if nothing else. The kids just have to get used to their routine including you getting to exercise - that's one of the hardest parts!

I wish we lived closer so we could motivate each other. Although if it's hard working out with 3 and 4 kids separately, just think how hard it would be with our 7 all together!

Kill me.

Shannon said...

Boy, do I feel your pain! I was so excited after I had #4 and got nice and thin and able to wear EVERYTHING in my closet. I had to put away clothes because they were TOO big. Then #5 came and I haven't been the same since! Those TOO big clothes are the ones I'm currently wearing. Depressing. I need to get motivated like you. Keep us posted and maybe you'll motivate me off my office chair!

granny said...

Take...me...with...youuuuuuuuu....(to the finish line.)

Heidi said...

You can do it!!! Good luck lady!

Lars said...

Good for you! I challenged my husband to a contest for motivation, which I seem to be needlessly lacking...he's more motivated than I am.

pass it on!

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