Quite suddenly I had the distinct thought that this illness came to slow me down, to give me clarity. As I pondered what I might learn from this slowing down (the timing of which was most unwelcome), the Spirit whispered, "Be still, and know that I am God."
Be still.
I haven't taken much time to be still lately. I haven't pondered much, or prayed as earnestly, or searched the scriptures in the way that best serves my spirit. But in the hazy hours since last night's whispered words, I have experienced the peaceful reassurance that God knows my needs. He is ready and waiting to carry my burdens. He will answer my prayers.
Surely it is He that directed sweet friends to leave a plate of cookies on my porch last night.
Only He knows what this gesture means to me this Christmas season. It might be presumptuous of me to assume that our anonymous elves read this blog, but just in case, please accept my heartfelt gratitude for your sweet service.
This morning I read a statement by Marvin J Ashton, a leader in our church, from an article written in February 1994. His words only add to my reverent feelings today.
"Very often over the years, I have had peace and patience knowing that [God] is there and would not forsake me, even though some prayers seem unanswered. What a joy and strength it would be in all of our lives to have the childlike faith and complete trust to know that He is there and we can cry unto Him under all circumstances.
"Perhaps it would be good for our souls to build the understanding that He is there, even our loving and eternal Father, and that oftentimes, delays to our urgent pleas can be best for us. Who is to say it isn't more important to know He is there than to receive immediate answers?"
So today, in the aftermath of the stomach flu, I'm feeling grateful -- grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows my name, answers my prayers, and sends His little angels to leave cookies on my doorstep.
8 comments:
I am glad you found your peace and that you are feeling better. I remember this summer, when I was forced to slow down...and so many times since, that it does bring you closer to God. Bitter/sweet.
Love that entire talk...and you.
amazing post. heart you.
Heidi that was beautiful and full of gratitude and love. Thanks for lifting me. I needed that also. So sorry you're sick. Garry said he'd stayed home to take care of the fam.
Lovely post, Heidi! A great reminder, especially in a season that should be all about "Him," but can get so hectic with "the rest."
Thank goodness this stomach flu moves quickly. Two down, in holding pattern here.
What a lovely post...get better soon!
(my word verification is imessis...sounds all too familiar, hyperemesis, YUCK!!)
Heidi:
It's been a year or so since I've tuned in. I clicked on "comment" thinking the entry was written by your husband. Too funny - seeing all these get-wells and thanks to you. To you both I simply wanted to add my thanks for such a powerful and simple reminder of where we should seek our strength. Just wanted to check in with a "hello" and wish you and your growing family a Merry Christmas.
-The Geddes'
Thank you for that quote and the reminder of what the season is about. I needed that today.
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